i'm in love with a stripper.

quick little diddy for ya.

naked newspaper files

this one just seemed to say something.

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naked newspaper files

go see.

http://www.clairefiedler.com/apps/photos/album?albumid=8616481

when he walks in to a room, walls lean in to listen.

troubled thoughts and the self-esteem to match, what a catch.

favorite^

i don't just want to be a footnote in someone else's happiness.

gray.

so first off, mia carruthers is completely awesome.

she was the show last year, taking the stage.

i diligently watched every episode. i love her voice.

here's one of many good ones,

we will grow--

she's gonna be on itunes, mia carruthers and the retro's.

oh in maybe a week or so.

i finished that wedding. weddings aren't my thing. they get me down. i don't wanna do that for the rest of my life. i just don't. it's not what i want my art to be...

i'm working again on the naked newspaper files. :) it's fun. i'm trying to create some different looks but i'm hitting roadblocks, here's what's happening so far with that tonight...

and to my lovely model hannah, thank you :) i will give you a cd of them all....eventually.

it's a pinked out black and white..meh

i looked at the plain, full color version and felt compelled to leave it alone.

i really wanted to go pink here....idk if it worked like i wanted.

i also have a dilemma. my website, www.whitetphotography.webs.com is coming to an end. i can leave it as is and never be able to add more photographs, or i can invest and buy a domain for a period of time and keep posting. i wish to do the latter..it's just choosing a domain. i struggle with a name. it's so final. and blah. i don't even know who i'm gonna be, ya know..so i might just end up doing clairefiedler.com, that's what's been playing around in my head. there'd be a lot of work i'd have to do and adjust a lot of things but maybe once all the family goes home i'll just have ootils of time on my hands. ooo-tuuulls. sound it out.

i was going to blog about it on my website and have ppl vote, but no one checks that blog really i don't think plus. i don't wanna pick something everyone else likes that i don't again.

that's what happened with c.photography. and then white t photography. i love that.. but then again, i don't think that's me. it's just what i wish i could play around with for awhile. i make compulsive decisions. i've been doing it all my life. i get it from my father. 'nuff of that.

and you're not even around.

today has been so long. just like last night.

just a very busy time. i'm trying to keep a balance of sorts but it doesn't ever feel like it's working.

in the end, sleep time suffers.

by the time i'm ready for bed, i still have around 3 more hours of homework type things, work, or working out. by the time i lay my head down, i start to think. i hate thinking before bed. it never works out well for me. so i usually take a sleeping aid to avoid the whole process. therefore, the next morning, it's still running its course because i've only slept for four hours.

enough of that nonsense though. i have news.

"my boyfriend's" name is cody. :) he was in my dorm the other night studying with a group of kids and i heard them call him that. they were studying for psychology. i got a 94. there was talk the night before that cody was definitely going to fail. next time i'll tell him to study with me.

i spent four and a half hours in the dark room today and i'm certain my hands will permanently smell like fixer. have you ever smelt fixer? at first you think that it smells terrible. the more time you spend with it, the more you start to kinda like it.

i really miss someone. it's really starting to suck even more than before.

it's driving me crazy. it's making me irritated.

before i leave, to write 2 papers and read government articles...i'd like to leave you with two things.

first, "god of wine" by third eye blind.

...I walk home alone with you / And the mood you're born into / Sometimes you let me in / And I take it on the chin / I can't get clean again / I want to know can we get clean again...

...And soon the cells give way, and cancels out the day / I can't keep it all together / I know I know I know... / I can't keep it all together / And the siren's song that is your madness / Holds a truth I can't erase / All alone on your face / Every glamorous sunrise / Throws the planets out of line / A star sign out of whack, a fraudulent zodiac / And the God of Wine is crouched down in my room / You let me down, I said it, now I'm going down / And you're not even around / And I said no no no... / I can't keep it all together / I know I know I know... / I can't keep it all together...

second, the naked newspaper files ::

i feel this way.

.........ceaf out.

on the naked newspaper files

the first of many blogs like this....

my metallic naked newspaper

she's a paper cut out

missed the train to mars

she always waits for me.

you can't say you've never felt this way.

you don't wanna miss this.

sitting naked.

and looking dead.

safety in a pin.

handmade background.

i've found a calling, i've found a focus.

i'll be going this way.

i'll be going to the top this way.

i don't think i told her thank you for being my creative muse. :) so thank you hannah.

i love love love these photo's i'll be editing for fun for weeks.

i'm so excited.