dear god,

grant me the serenity....

theres a reason i said i would be happy alone. it wasn’t because i thought i would be happy alone. it was because if i loved someone and it fell apart... i might not make it. 
it’s easier to be alone. 
because what if you learn that you need love... and then you don’t have it. what if you like it. and lean on it. what if you, ...shape your life around it. and then it falls apart.. 
can you even survive that kind of pain? 
loosing love is like organ damage. 


it’s like dying. 
the only difference is, death ends. 


this,
it could go on forever.

heat rock

particularily

It literally feels like a lifetime ago
but I still remember the shit like it was just yesterday though
you walked in, yellow jump suit
whole room, cracked jokes
once you got inside the booth, told you, like smoke
went through friends, some of them I put on
but they just left, they said they was riding to the death
But where the fuck are they now?
now that I need them, I don't see none of them
all I see is Slim
fuck all you fair-weather friends
all I need is him
fucking backstabbers
when the chips were down you just laughed at us
Now you 'bout to feel the fucking wrath of Aftermath, faggots
you gon' see us in our lab jackets and ask us where the fuck we been?
You can kiss my indecisive ass crack, maggots, and the cracker's ass
Little Cracker Jack, beat-making wackass backwards producers
I'm back, bastards
one more CD and then I'm packing up my bags and as I'm leaving
I'll guarantee they scream, Dre don't leave us like that man 'cause...

i like to listen to those lyrics.

bella wells.

i will miss you...

if all sunday's are like this,

count me in.

and every day i wake,

i tell myself a little harmless lie,

the whole wide world is mine.

you may have seen these...

:(

i miss them already.

i don't want to go yet.