sad day.

i spent the afternoon hanging posters everywhere around spearfish and campus.

the fundraising is over.

elliot was not chosen to adopt annie.

sad day.

:(

must love dogs -- please help

if you have any love for dogs.

or an appreciation of a boys love for a dog.

here's one story you can help.

annie. and elliot.

http://annieneedsyourhelp.chipin.com/annie-a-german-shepherd-in-need

elliot is my cousin and he loves dogs. i think it is safe for me to say i've never seen anyone care about dogs so much. i thought i held the title but he really does. he loves to meet them, pet them, walk them, play with them. anything. he loves 'em.

let's help these two.

<3

burn out

i realized it'd be a hell of a lot smarter to avoid a burn out so...i decorated my wall and photographed it. and now i'm going to show you what it looks like...well just some parts. i left out some g000d stuff but oh well, another time, another town. :D

someday someone will be doing this with my pictures in a magazine.

girls in white dresses and sleeping with roaches...

sometimes i just get burned out about lots of things and well just doubt.

so tell me something good you got it.

cause i'm confused and do i break into two.
so tell me how about you.

hey what you got, something bad and i want it.
even though i know it's wrong.

man i don't wanna be able to breathe.
be able to see what's become of the wars of this world.
and the wars from my tongue.


hey what you got, something bad and i want it.
even though i know it's wrong.

i can't wait to just shoot the world soon. after i get all my orders done. that's what i'm gonna do. and it's going to be amazing. i have so many ideas...can't wait....until then---

i'm still working on these. about 5 hours of work left. just a matter of balancing that time with everything else.

i miss this moment.

i'm being pretty open right now.

it's pretty rare.

pretty risky.

pretty awkward.

i won't apologize for it though.

night...

it hurts.

hannah's blog made me think about how i feel in terms of words. i can't place the words. if i had to give a word. i'd just say, it hurts.

check out her blog by the way, she's really talented. i can't wait to see her on daily basis.

i didn't put white t photography copyright on them, so how about you just don't steal 'em. k cool..

i feel like these images....

as the leaves fall.

when raindrops sing.

when buildings cry.

the perfect splash.

it's the tragedy. ^ that's hannah

it's a desolate life.

i took a picture, that i don't like to look at.

dear "boyfriend,"

sorry i wasn't at breakfast, i wonder if you noticed i wasn't there. i didn't feel good. but i'll be there tomorrow.

dear body,

please don't do me wrong. i don't wanna get sick again. specially nothing serious. we'll go to bed soon...i hope.

dear angels and airwaves,

you fit my mood so well, so thanks. but i still won't ever admit i like you just because blink is so so much better.

dear you,

send me a sign.

dear professor clarke,

these papers suck. i hate them. and this class. make it interesting, please!

dear msum,

you sure can leave a depressing voicemail. humph.

we don't need to whisper

i said hi to "my boyfriend" today but he didn't hear me. he was at dinner with a bunch of people that live on the second floor of my hall, they all walked by and i just said hi! and he kept goin. in his defence, it was pretty loud and there was another guy inbetween us as they walked. i wanted to tell you all that he has one of those 'baby' faces, you know the cute ones like "ahh he's so cute." he's funny i think but really shy. from what i perceive.

i'm studying and writing reports and all this junk i don't wanna be doing.

here's a fun story too:

my roommate's boyfriend, tyler ball. yes, ball. is hiding in our room because some guy wants to fight him because he said hello to his ex girlfriend, magg. the guy lives in rapid and drove 45 miles down to our campus to stand outside to say he's gonna fight tyler. the ex is stalking maggie apparently.

probably comment on this again later. that's all i have in my little brain to share. until later bloggers................

no time!

FINALLY got the internet to work....ARGH.. i'm sitting in the "R.A. on Duty" chair. :\ but at least i can do some work, cousin ryan and finance' caitlynn.

there are a few more on whitetphotography.webs.com in the good people album.

ego

it's too big, it's too wide.

it's too strong, it won't fit.

it's too much, it's too tough.

i talk like this cause i can back it up.

that's fun.

just the start of this project. more to come....sometime. this week is gonna be pretty crazy.

where the wild things are

the same feeling. that sadness thing. came back. while i watched this movie.

i don't know what my deal is but i just cried through this thing. it probably isn't even sad but i was gripping my chest with the tears rolling. it's so crazy. goodness sakes.

the lady at the ticket box said i had beautiful eyes. they are pretty blue today.

i wish i could remember a quote from the movie that i loved but it's slipped my mind. maybe it'll come back sometimes. anyway...that's all for now.

overcome

just now i became overwhelmed with this break-your-heart kind of deep sadness. now it's leading me to think of these sad things i have passed by or dealt with.

i won't mention the name but the first thing i thought of was the time i heard a mother crying, no weeping over the loss of her newest baby, r.i.p. little one...

when my sister told me grandma ellen died.

whenever my mother cries.

when my dad told me to stop crying because it was making him fall apart, and then he broke down. "big hearts break easy."

when we put gypsy down.

and even bigger things, like katrina...9/11

that was the strangest moment i've had in a long time.

earlier today i was thinking about what if i was just 1 minute earlier for everything in my life. how different would i be, what kind of life would i lead? even a few seconds, who would i meet?

for instance, every morning i eat breakfast alone in the mess hall. i like it. how it feels just to people watch. in fact i have certain people i pick out and watch for. one being "my boyfriend." i don't know why i call him this, i just do. i see him every morning on tuesday's and thursday's. he never misses these days, he comes usually 5 minutes after i sit down. monday, wednesday, and friday it varies. but he acts like i do. gets cereal. different kinds. his favorite i think is cheerio. mine is coca puffs. i'm sure that would be a discussion. he's like me, he listens to his ipod the whole time. and when he goes to swipe his card with the morning cashier he takes the right ear bud out, just like me. so i call him my boyfriend even though i don't know his name or where he's from. when his birthday is. but i know he likes cheerios, music, and zip up hoodies. i like to think my attention to detail allows me to know some part of him at least.

i guess i'm glad i'm on the time setting i am. otherwise i might of had a "boyfriend" who like special k or that chex mix junk, and that would just not sit right with me.

i'm not sure why i felt possessed to write all that but i'm in a talkative mood, RARE.

you've been askin, i've been drinkin. thinkin about my god forsaken life i lead, it's a memory. i made it be. my lips went white, my spine tee's tight. i realized it was gonna be a long night. but it's proved to be sexier are the moments like these. this is love and this is lust. i need it to be the best. and if i were to be the best, maybe you would trust. this is love and this is lust. now which one do i trust. .............an untitled song by cute is what we aim for. i like it. specifically [thinkin about my god forsaken life i lead.]

i guess that's all i'm ready to give up right now.......later

new album

http://whitetphotography.webs.com/apps/photos/album?albumid=7264800

family portrait album. soon will be filled with another family but for now, the swindler's.

if you wanna dance with someone....

i suggest this little tune::

This one goes out to you and yours' worldwide

I say

Hey I be gone today

But I be back around the way

Seems like everywhere I go

The more I see

the less I know

But I know one thing:

That I love you

I love you

I love you

I love you

I’ve been a lot of places all around the way

I’ve seen a lot joy and I’ve seen a lot of pain

but I don’t want to write a love song for the world,

I just want to write a song about a boy and a girl

Junkies on the corner always calling my name

And the kids on the corner playing ghetto games

When I saw you getting down well I hoped it was you

And when I looked into your eyes I knew it was true

I say Hey I be gone today

But I be back around the way

Seems like everywhere I go

The more I see

the less I know

But I know one thing:

That I love you

I love you

I love you

I love you

Now I’m not a highly metaphysical man

But I know when the stars are aligned

you can bump into person in the middle of the road

look into their eyes and you suddenly know

Rocking in the dance hall moving with you

Dancing in the night in the middle of June

My momma told me don’t lose you

‘cause the best luck I had was you

I said Hey I be gone today

But I be back around the way

Seems like everywhere I go

The more I see the less I know

But I know one thing:

That I love you

I love you

I love you

I love you

And I said rocking in the dance hall moving with you

I said Hey momma hey momma close to you

Rocking in the dance hall moving with you

I said hey papa hey papa kick off your shoes

Rocking in the dance hall moving with you

I said Hey Momma close to you

Rocking in the dance hall moving with you

I said hey momma hey momma hey momma hey momma

Hey momma hey momma hey momma hey momma

My momma told me don’t lose you

Cause the best luck I had was you

And I know one thing that I love you

I said I be gone today but I’ll be back around the way

It seems like everywhere I go

The more I see the less I know

But I know one thing for sure

I love you

I love you

I love you

still working.....

me an da boys baybeh

..you should know i bleed blue but i ain't a Crip though, but i got a gang of niggas walking with my clique though..

..without a wrinkle in today cause there's no tomorrow. just a picture perfect day that lasts a whole lifetime. and it never ends cause all we do is have to hit rewind. so let's just stay in the moment, smoke some weed, drink some wine. reminisce, talk some shit, forever young is in your mind. leave a mark they can't erase, neither space nor time. so when the director yells cut, i'll be fine, i'm, forever young.

legend jay z.

he's on the top of my list.

is it strange that i find this attractive? watched his behind the music on vh1 for like 2 hours today. diggin it.

shhh...the fireman comin'....

but now i'm cruisin with the photo's.. will finish these babes in two weeks flat. f school work. :s

this little boy isn't up on the website yet, in time. in time.

check me web :: show some love :: diggin it.